everything's alrt i always say. have you ever looked into my eye or pretend t care? nope. and now im spending these useless nights whining away, weeping at how loving a man can take so much away from me. sometimes i wish i were deaf. that way, i couldnt hear the countless stories you tell me. i wish i had a place t rant it all out, every single thing on my mind. or t somebody trustworthy of my secrets. even on this blog. im hiding facts about the things you do, so hurtful you dont realise. and when the hurt is felt, i swallowed it down like gulping down a spoonful of awful tasting chinese herbal medicine. and after which i dont make a noise. i smile it over. whilst i continue asking how much fun you had, little did you realise ive been hurt again. these complaints i dont say them t you, i note it all down on thesweetdeath. im not afraid that you'll see my rantings, because in the first place my feelings nvr mattered t you. but your feelings do matter.

the same thing happened t me as it did t you in the later part. you took it so differently from the way i did. did you even realise. so much happenings, i kept it t myself. it didnt mattered as long as you're happy. when im at fault, i apologise, it had t take a night due t minor tiffs. when you're at fault, i apologise too. it too, took a night, but guess what, you forget all abt it the very next day. until now, im gonna say, it doesnt matter. i want you happy.

♥